Chrissy Teigen recently revealed that she’s in a better place emotionally after having lost her baby earlier this year due to pregnancy complications. However, she shared that she’ll never be able to be pregnant again.

On Wednesday, the 35-year-old wrote an update to her fans on Instagram, detailing parts of her emotional journey since she and husband John Legend lost the child they began calling Jack in September. In the message, the model and entrepreneur also shared a photo of her “bump” and acknowledged that it has been “frustrating” to deal with her physical appearance.

“This is me and my body, just yesterday,” she wrote. “Even though I’m no longer pregnant, every glance in the mirror reminds me of what could have been. And I have no idea why i still have this bump, honestly. It’s frustrating.”

The mom of two, four-year-old daughter Luna and two-year-old son Miles, later expressed that she has found joy by watching her family grow and become closer.

“But I’m proud of where this entire journey took my body and mind in other ways. I love being pregnant, so so much, and I’m sad I never will be again. But I am lucky to have two amazing little ones who are transforming into big little people more and more every single day,” she wrote.

A slew of good wishes came pouring in from fans of Teigen when she took to Instagram on Sept. 30 to inform them that doctors couldn’t save her son, as Blavity previously reported. She was hospitalized two days before her miscarriage due to excessive bleeding and needed blood transfusions.