Robert Sylvester Kelly, better known as R. Kelly, is at it again. The self-proclaimed "Pied Piper" dropped a 19-minute confessional--if you will--that is both eyebrow-raising and eyeball-rolling, depending on which set you’re checking for: those who are for the singer versus those who are against him. While one side is sympathetic to Kelly bearing his soul on digital wax, the other is over his antics.
Today is the day you’ve been waiting for. 🎶 I ADMIT 🎶
LISTEN: https://t.co/ncQiDOC6Gq pic.twitter.com/DR8Aijj62N— R. Kelly (@rkelly) July 23, 2018
The song, titled "I Admit," is no pearl-clutching tell-all; however, Kelly does attempt to lay bare his flaws and clear his name from years of reported allegations of sexual misconduct with underage girls and brainwashing women to become active participants of a sex cult in his Atlanta home, which he vehemently denies.
Kelly admits he “made some mistakes,” that he is “broke,” but not broken, “dropped outta school,” and “can’t spell for s**t.” He admits the weakness he has for f**king b***hes, drugs and alcohol and literacy. Kelly acknowledges that he is trash due to molestation and other challenges he experienced during his childhood. Then, in a swift rift of a drumbeat, the narrative shifts into a solo pity party, celebrating his assumed victimhood at the hands of greedy management and lecherous hangers-on, people's opinion and women looking to tear him down. Kelly wants to set the record straight. So, by admission, the lyrical crooner denies brainwashing, kidnapping and withholding food from women with whom he alludes to being involved.
Though he mentions no names, he sings directly to a father he claims dropped his daughter at one of his shows, telling him man-to-man, parent-to-parent: "Don't put your daughter in front of me, and tell me it's OK." It can be assumed the incident ignited a relationship. The singer asks, “What’s the definition of a cult? What’s the definition of a sex slave?” He sends listeners to the dictionary before comparing himself to Playboy founder Hugh Hefner.
Another mentionable is when he accuses “certain people” of turning phony, turning their back on him and doubting him. He addresses this person in a scathing verse:
“B***h, you know who you are / B***h, I bought you a car / B***h, you stayed in my crib / I loved you with all my heart.”
Kelly is in his “feelings,” and it ain’t got nothing to do with Kiki. However, the passage likely has much to do with Asante McGee, a woman who "blew the top off" Kelly's reported Pandora's box. McGee, who was included in BuzzFeed's Kelly exposé and appeared on Megyn Kelly Today, alleges prior engagement with Kelly, and avows his negative treatment of women and being a member of his sex cult.
McGee sat down with Blavity for an exclusive discussion of the song and her role in Kelly’s latest debacle. Watch our sit-down interview in the video above and read her responses in the Q&A below:
Blavity: According to reports in BuzzFeed, The Washington Post and an appearance alongside Kitti Jones (another Kelly accuser) on Megyn Kelly Today, you claim you were involved with R. Kelly. Where did you two meet?
Asante McGee: I first met Rob in September 2013 on the Black Panties promo tour on my birthday weekend at Club Reign in Atlanta. One of his entourage invited a friend and me to the VIP area.
Blavity: How long were you involved with R. Kelly?
McGee: Two years. So, we had our first sexual relationship in February 2014.
Blavity: As someone who has made strong accusations about R. Kelly, what was your reaction to the song?
McGee: I received a text telling me to listen to his Instagram Live. When I went to it and saw the title "I Admit," I thought, 'Oh my gosh, he’s about to confess and admit everything that is going on, finally, and maybe the girls are about to leave.'
Blavity: Did you listen to the whole song?
McGee: I did.
Blavity: How did it make you feel?
McGee: I listen to this 20-minute song, and in the first 10 minutes, he has you feeling sorry for him. Like, 'oh my god, all of this happened [to him]; he was molested.' But, of course, we all know this, and toward the end, he goes in--pretty much trying to justify his actions. He is full of s**t and trying to play the sympathy card at this point. He has no other recourse. I was heated. My whole body was burning hot. I can’t believe he is pulling this stunt.
Blavity: Is there some truth to this song?
McGee: Yes, there is truth to the song.
Blavity: Like what?
McGee: He’s fired staff, him being molested as a child; using that to justify his actions. He has not seen his kids in years, and that’s to a fault of his own.
Blavity: How do you know these things?
McGee: He told me on different occasions.
Blavity: Were there any particular parts of the song that stood out?
McGee: Him buying the car and [allowing] someone to live in the house and when he’s talking about betrayal and calling that person a b***h.
Blavity: Any parts of the song specific to you or your experience with Kelly?
McGee: Yes, him buying me a car and allowing me to live in his house. From the beginning, I always told him I would never betray him in any way, and I would always have his back. He told me he knew that I would. When he says all that, I felt like he knows I am the one who blew the top off all this. I feel he is blaming me directly.
Blavity: Were you a part of a sex cult?
Blavity: How long did you live with R. Kelly?
McGee: From around June 4, 2016, to about mid-June.
Blavity: How many women were involved?
McGee: Four to six, the reason I say that is because two of the girls were in and out. I wasn’t around them as much.
Blavity: You said you were the person to bring this up?
McGee: Yes, when I left the house, I knew I could not sit back and let the parents know. So, I contacted the parents to make them aware of the situation. I’m the first person to speak anonymously and go on the record with Jim Derogatis, who wrote the story for BuzzFeed and is also mentioned in the song.
Blavity: In your opinion, why would he make this song?
McGee: To have [people] on his side because all his [shows] are being canceled; Spotify dropped his music. So, it’s like he’s blaming us. When I say us, the victims. To show he’s this guy that is so innocent and that everyone is consenting adults, to show because he was molested as a child that he’s a sex fiend.
Blavity: What are your thoughts on people who have reacted to the song in defense of R. Kelly?
McGee: Honestly, I haven’t been on social media to look at comments and view the reaction. The only reaction I’m getting is from people who know me, who are reaching out to ask if I heard the song or to say he’s talking about me in the song.
Blavity: Does this song vindicate R. Kelly?
McGee: No, I think it actually hurts him more than it helps him. I feel like he is admitting what he did by trying to justify his actions.
Blavity: Is there anything else you want to share with us?
McGee: I mean, at this point, his fans are gonna take up for him even more. Now people saying, 'Oh my gosh, he’s illiterate; oh my gosh, he was molested.' Again, this is not something that is brand-new. We knew this already. It just pisses me off. Earlier today, after the release of the song, I went into a shell. I guess that’s why I avoided social media because I really don’t want to see what the fans are going to say because I know it’s going to be more backlash toward all of the women coming forward and [who] are still coming forward. There are so many things that are going on the naked eye can’t see. Until you’re in that situation, you will never understand. People keep saying they are old enough, they knew better, they're tryna get a check. Until you are in that situation, you will never understand.