In the latest episode of Red Table Talk, Jada Pinkett Smith, her mother, Adrienne Banfield Norris, and guest host Kelly Osbourne welcomed actress Hayden Panettiere to the table where the topic of the day was all about alpha males. Panettiere also opened up about her past drug and alcohol addiction, postpartum depression, and relinquishing custody of her daughter.

During the episode, Panettiere recalled some of the most horrifying times of her life, including the first time, she was introduced to drugs at the age of 16.

Panettiere explained she was “a little low-energy” on a red carpet when an adult from her team gave her an unknown pill.

“It was, ‘here, take one of these, it’s a happy pill, it’ll give you energy,’ so I didn’t think of it at the time as a bad thing or a drug,” she said. Thinking back, she compared the “happy pill” to that of “an Adderall.” She revealed that the team member acquired the prescription stimulant from Mexico.

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According to a past interview with PEOPLE, Panettiere continued to use drugs and alcohol to cope with life, including the postpartum depression she suffered after giving birth to her daughter Kaya. The Heroes actress would go on to get treatment but ended up having to relinquish custody of her daughter. Unbeknownst to her, she gave custody to her ex-husband, boxing champion Wladimir Klitschko. She said he didn’t understand her mental health issues.