This post is part of an ongoing #BlackFuturesMonth18 series in February with the Black Lives Matter Network, exclusively shared on Blavity, that aims to explore what the Black feminist future can and should look like for all of us.
Week three of #BFM18 is here! Our second pair this week are poet Amir Sulaiman and visual artist Mawena Yehouessi.
Amir Sulaiman is a poet, recording artist, Harvard Fellow, actor, screenwriter and producer born in Rochester, New York. His partner, this Black Futures Month, is Mawena Yehouessi, co-founder and director of Black(s) to the Future, as well as an artist, dancer, graphic designer and project manager.
Their collaboration brings you their visions of a Black Feminist Future.
"Are You Disconnected"
Poem by Amir Sulaiman
Artwork by Mawena Yehouessi
Bismillah
Laying face down on the moon
stars in my eyes
space dust in my hair
earth so far from here
earth so small from here
I had to exit love and enter fear
to get here
I saw God in the sun,
God in the stars
but not God in the mirror
What, there's no God in Amir?
gold mine in my mind
salt mined in my tears
I’m searching for heaven
but I was already there
like the Kingdom of God
between your eyes and your ears
between your sea and your sky
In your skin, in your hair
If heaven is there then what is here?
Why am I here?
You are a wide floating meadow
with more green than gravity
and more beauty than my eyes can hold
my eyes are swollen trying to drink you in
but my poor eyes cannot bear it
like heavy rain laden clouds
if I don't weep I fear they would explode
But now what will all my weeping win me?
There is no reward for regret.
I would love nothing more
than to bury myself in you
To find a home in your brown body after the sun has warmed you
I’d rather return to die a thousand deaths inside you
Than to live another day of life here
What is there for a man who is living
more death than life?
What will I do?
Answer me, love.
Will you not answer me?
My love