Former Atomic Kitten singer Kerry Katona is reliving some traumatic moments. In her third autobiography, Whole Again: Love, Life and Me, Katona discloses some grave details about her marriage to the late professional rugby player George Kay. The pair married in 2014 and divorced in 2017.

In her book, Katona alleges that her marriage was full of abuse, accusations of cheating, and black magic.

According to The Sun, Katona wrote about Kay’s alleged violent outbursts and threats. The outlet reports that writing about the tumultuous marriage caused Katona’s anxiety to come flooding back.

“It’s been really hard, my anxiety has been through the roof,” she told New magazine, according to The Sun. “I’ve been stuck in the past, feeling full of anxiety and fear.”

“George has such a hold over me even in death, I still feel scared he’s going to get me,” she continued. “He was so manipulative and calculated. I’m also very aware George is dead and he isn’t here to voice his side of the story. But this is all fact — and it’s my truth.”

“He was so vile to me. I’m telling you now, if George was still alive and I’d have stayed with him, I’d be dead,” she said.

Kay died in 2019 as a result of a cocaine overdose. Metro reported that on July 6, the 39-year-old stayed at the Holiday Inn hotel in Runcorn, Cheshire.

Allegedly, a hotel worker saw Kay pull a “large white ball” from his pants and proceed to ingest it.

Kay and Katona divorced two years prior to his death, and Katona said that she believes that Kay’s drug use contributed to the deterioration of their marriage.

In the book, Katona alleges in the book that Kay accused her of flirting with Antony Costa, a fellow pop star, and then assaulted her.

 

She alleges that Kay called her a sl*t and “grabbed a fistful” of her hair, which was “cropped close” to her head at the time. She added that she could feel her skull “burning.”

Along with the alleged abuse, the 42-year-old author claimed her ex’s love for the occult and dark magic enhanced his drug psychosis. She alleged that he would put spells on her and call her his “dark angel,” the Mirror reports.

 

“He always had a foot in the dark side and he used to practice black magic, as he was obsessed with the occult,” she wrote, according to the Mirror.

In the book, Katona described evidence she would allegedly find that let her know her then-husband was dealing with something dark.

“I remember when we were living in Chinnor, [and] George was messing with dark forces. I used to find these dead flies in the bathroom all the time,” she wrote in her memoir, according to the Mirror. “Hundreds of them scattered all over the floor. We’d hoover them up and then a couple of days later, they’d be back.”

“Now that alone is enough to freak anyone out, but I later found out George was practising black magic in that same bathroom,” she continued.

In the captivating book, Katona relives the time her ex allegedly threatened to inject their daughter with heroin. Katona admitted that her late husband still has a hold on her, even in death.

Despite this, Katona has found her way out of the dark place and has been open about her journey to sobriety and finding new love.

Katona has also found her way back to the money. The mother of five claims her racy Only Fans has made her a millionaire, The Sun reports.