“I am 100% not ok. If I wasn’t spiritual I could kill my self (but then I’ll go to hell and my man not there),” she wrote in the caption, which was posted alongside a video of the couple and their family.

 

Sibounheuang then revealed that the late rapper acted heroically before his passing.

“My man saved my life, Throwing me under that table. I’m not supposed to be here but bc of him. I am. No one would be able to handle this. TBH, I can’t even handle this,” she added.

Sibounheuang opened up about the harrowing events that followed the rapper’s homicide, from “being forced out the restaurant” and into a police car to being “locked in an interrogation room all night” and being “the last person” to learn that PnB Rock didn’t survive the shooting.

Sibounheuang also shared with viewers that she and PnB Rock were in a happy place in their relationship around the time of his passing.

“I felt this time in my relationship everything was finally perfect for our family. My man had gave his self to GOD. Did a complete 360. He was loyal. He was patient. He was teachable and a teacher. I was finally letting the past go, and letting him show up as his changed self,” she wrote.

The mother and influencer also shared a sweet exchange she had with the rapper on their last day together.

“My last day with u. I told you ‘I know you my husband. I know you my soulmate.’ Even if it was for a little bit,” she continued. “At least we got to experience what having a soul mate is… and for that…I am grateful.”

Sibounheuang concluded her post with a message about life.

“They say your angels come and stop by and visit you but I feel like mine is always here, it ain’t no stopping by. … Pain is real. No matter how rich u are, how famous u are, how spiritual u are. Some pain is inevitable,” she wrote.

As TMZ reported, Freddie Lee Trone and his 17-year-old son were charged with one count of murder and conspiracy to commit robbery, along with two counts of second-degree robbery in connection to PnB Rock’s death.