Kevin Gates surprised his fans when he revealed that he considered taking his life last December due to feelings of not being "celebrated" and previous traumas he's still dealing with.

“I’ma say something on this interview that I’ve never said before. December 10th through the 12th was the hardest for me [last] year,” he said during his appearance on the Big Facts podcast.

“I disabled my Instagram … See, I don’t do the, ‘Man, I’m ’bout to kill myself!’ I don’t want no attention. I was going the way of the samurai. Just smash myself because I was to the point I ain’t wanna live no more," he continued.

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Gates explained that he "wasn’t happy" with the way he was being treated at home.

“As men, when you a provider and you not feeling like you being celebrated in the proper manner, you feel like you only being tolerated … when I was in the streets I used to hate going home because I feel like I wasn’t welcome there. Y’all act like I’m just doing what I’m supposed to be doing," he said.

He went on to describe that some men have trouble dealing with their emotions and are “so busy being tough and harboring all these resentment and emotions and the s**t we deal with."

"That pressure was on top of my head. I was like, ‘Man, I quit,'” he added.

Once his mind was made up, he decided to put all of his frustrations and feelings down in a suicide note before hitting the gym for his final workout.

“I had a raw letter that I wrote about everything,” he remembered. “I was just saying, I don’t regret nobody I ever stepped on; if I did, your momma ain’t raise you right. I wrote about how I’ve been in love before and had my heart broken. How the first woman to ever break my heart was my mother, and the only woman to ever love me was my grandmother."

“After I did that, I went in the gym, worked out, took a shower, put all my jewelry on. I looked at myself in the mirror and said, ‘Say Dick [which is the nickname his grandfather gave him], it’s time to stand on that business. Ain’t no more talking.’ So I was like, ‘Yeah, let’s go get it done,'” Gates continued.

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